I attended my first
concert over 30 years ago. I was in the throes of a diseased, codependent
relationship that lasted over 12 years. My alcoholic partner, Joey, and I
were strolling on the Boston Common when we were approached by a guy who
held out his hand and said, “How would you like two free tickets to a show
that will change your life? The matinee is starting right now.” We
looked at each other and shrugged but had nothing better to do so we
accepted his offer. We walked a mere two blocks through the flower laden
park to the theater, took our seats in the balcony, and watched the lights
dim. A svelte young woman, with wild curly hair, wearing hippy gear,
walked to the piano. Through a thick haze of marijuana we were introduced
to Carole King. With her first chord, the crowd went crazy. This amazing
artist was just my age at the time, although I had never heard her music.
I was enraptured as she belted out her lyrics.

Of the 2000 plus people in
the audience, I was probably the only one not smoking a joint. I was
terrified that the police were going to raid the auditorium and take us
all to jail. I was definitely “Miss Priss,” more concerned with what Joey
was doing and thinking, than with the artistry on the stage. My stomach
was in knots most of time, wondering what the next second would bring with
my alcoholic partner. I spent every waking moment with thoughts of “him.”
I was so neurotic that I literally wrung my hands with worry. This
special experience might have gone right by me, like everything else in my
world, if it weren’t for the fact that I was inhaling second hand smoke
and was “stoned” myself. The “pot” allowed me to loosen up and chill out
for a few hours.
Carole King performed her
classic album, “Tapestry,” which has sold over 11 million copies and was a
4x Grammy winner. She is a poet and a musician; her work is a gift to
us. I purchased her record that day and I still have the original copy.
I practically wore it out playing it. At the depth of my addiction her
music soothed my soul. As I was getting well, her lyrics evoked pleasant
memories or gave me a message that I needed to hear at just the right
moment. Listening to her fascinating voice was therapeutic. I didn’t
have to work or analyze anything. I was just there, enjoying the pleasure
of being and listening.
Recently I had the good
fortune of seeing Carole King in concert in San Francisco on her “Love
Makes the World” tour. As I sat down in the Masonic Auditorium, next to
my wonderful husband Bryan, I noticed we occupied seats in the same area
of the balcony that I had shared with Joey 33 years earlier. Carole sat
at the piano facing the group just as she had done that spring day. The
difference this time was her cozy “Living Room” arrangement on stage. It
felt like de-ja-vu. Except, not. This time I was there as a healthy,
clear-headed woman. All of us in the crowd were much older and there
wasn’t “dope” wafting in the air. For 2 ˝ hours we were transported to a
magical world of melodious mystery. She did it again; captivated her
audience and moved us to new heights. I was reminded of the beauty of
music at all stages of growth.
Each of us creates our own
life tapestry. The warp of our weaving represents our childhood, which
often is dark and unbalanced. All of our experiences, both good and bad,
color the art and give it strength. As we begin our journey of recovery
the yarn becomes more brilliant, filling in the picture and making it
whole. The richest threads are gold and silver. They symbolize the
harmonious sounds of music, of all types, enriching our soul. The fabric
of my life was altered that fateful day in Boston many years ago. I
accept and experience the healing power of music. I am going to continue
to let it carry me to a peaceful world. What about you?
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