Have
you ever had a crisis in your life in which you deliberately,
earnestly, and recklessly abandoned everything? It is a crisis
of the will.
You may come to that point many times externally, but it
will amount to nothing. The true deep crisis of abandonment, or
total surrender, is reached internally, not externally. The
giving up of only external things may actually be an indication
of your being in bondage.
Have you deliberately committed your will to God? Is it a
transaction of the will, not of emotion; any positive emotion
that results is simply a superficial blessing arising out of the
transaction. If you focus your attention on the emotion, you
will never make the transaction. Do not ask God what the
transaction is to be, but make the determination to surrender
your will regarding whatever you see, whether it is in the
shallow or the deep, profound places internally.
If you have heard God's voice on the waves of the sea, you
can let your convictions and your consistency take care of
themselves by concentrating on maintaining your intimate
relationship to Him.
--My Utmost for His Highest
Montyman